ciggy break talk time

Had a ciggy break today..
Finally ended my 2 months of no smoking, decided to take 2 sticks in 1 break today as I had the company to accompany me throughout the 2 sticks..

Yes I know I swore to myself that I will never smoke again, no excuses this time, it's just like sex, when you need it, you need it, period.

Had a chat with a nsmen and karen today.. He was sharing with us about his recent family problem.. He asked if Karen will be free after the ICT to go out with the other officers for a drink.. Soon as the conver gets deeper, we were all puzzled.. We came to realise about his story about his failed marriage recently..

Apparently, he got married 4 years ago, have a kid and was like every normal happy family.. Had a child within the next year and she is turning 3 mid this year. Wondering what made this man a free man today, being able to organise drinking session with us made me learnt about the his failed marriage.. As every of his men know (he's an officer), he used to be an alcoholic, smoke tons, fool around all the time, even karen knows about this (HAHA). It is an opened "secret".

He stated that recently, his divorced had been finalised and as he said it out, I can feel that deep in his heart, he wished that it was just a nightmare that had gone past.. Unfortunately, reality was just right before him.. Because of his marriage, he gave up drinking, only entertaining clients once every 2 months instead of the usual 3 times a week, reaches home everyday before 10pm, cuts down smoking by a lot and stopped all socialising activities.. He felt that he wanted to become a good example for his family in the future.. However, his wife never appreciates all that he has done for the family.

She had an affair, with another man, abandoned the child with him and divorced him and finally, leaving with the other man having their own life now.. He then said this "a man might fool around, but he still knows where his home is, however, when a woman fools around, her heart leaves with her (in mandarin).."

I can feel his emotions, my heart felt it, that deep in his heart, how much he can start all over again and never walk this path.. After all, this is a broken down world and people's hearts are filled with lust, greed, hate and the list goes on..

I took my last puff, and I began thinking more and more.. Got deeper into thoughts.. Decided to write this post, and all I can conclude is, the world still needs LOVE.. Lots and lots of love.. From God.. Definitely..