"Last Saturday service is a service of restoration, of a wound that is long left inside my heart that probably was left un-stitched, no mended and never taken care of. Really thank God for putting a word into pastor kong as he shared it with the church.
Since young, I always hated my dad, even though I am his preferred son. However, I always put an act in front of him whenever I'm with him. I tried to make use of him totally, especially in the area which he has abundance in, which is money. I really hated how I myself look, I even punch my mirror a lot of times till my knuckles swell, all because I really looked like my dad and each time my mum compares me with my dad, I will hate it, really hate it a lot. However, really got to thank God for restoration in my life.
I will never remember what I saw in my spirit at the ending worship song during service. I saw 2 extremely huge arms, which somehow I got this very strong assurance feeling that it's the arms of God that was hugging the whole church really tightly. After that, I saw wings, which maybe it might be wings of angels wrapped the whole church up like a ball, then I can hear God saying these words to me "my dear children, I love each and every one of you with all my heart" Immediately, I couldn't stop crying as I was in front of the stage.
During the time when I was ministered to, I made a promise to God and myself that in the future when I myself get older and get married and have my own kids, I will be a loving father to all my kids. I will provide them as well as my wife with security, identity and self-worth as well, which for my case, I had none of them as I was growing up. I might never be the perfect father for my kids, but thank God that I have a perfect Father who looks after me every single step I take and looks after mine when I have my very own =) ....."
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